I NEVER FELT SO STRESSFUL BEFORE!!
i have never felt so stressful until i cried in the middle of the night..
nearly can't stop
wanna find someone and talk but could not.
scroll the whatsapp list and see no one i can talk to at that time.
i know only myself can handle my stress and no one else could help me
but sometimes i wish i have a shoulder to lean on, i wish i have someone who can understand me even i dont speak a word
well, i know is very difficult to find that right person in my life.
when you are stressful, you will blindly think of anything which comes into your mind and the condition will be super worst and cause u cry non stop
but i felt much more better after i cried out
i know i should not cry as cry could not help me to solve my problem but yet i feel better afterwards.
what i only can tell myself is, be strong and tough after u cry.
sometimes, is kinda sad when think about my own situation.
i dont think i have any best friend who really can consider as best friend, one pair up with another and the other pair up with another as well! then how about me? do i really dont worth your friendship? well, maybe i dont understand your condition and thats why, but can u please take care of my feeling as well?
i always make jokes and laugh does not mean that i am really happy.
the harder i laugh, the sadder i am!
anyone knows about that??
i guess no one.
as the middle child in family, same situation as well.
you hardly will get the attention unless u did something wrong and then u will get scolded badly at that time.
do i only worth to be scolded? i did some good jobs as well! why dont you ever praise me?? WHY??
sometimes, when u treat other people good but they dont appreciate that.
and they take that for guaranted.
well, honestly speaking,
I FUCKING DONT LIKE THE WAY U SPEAK!
maybe u felt the same as well to the way i spoke
but please, can you be more CONSIDERATE when you speak???
can u dont be so SACARSTIC?? AS U DONT LIKE OTHER PEOPLE BE SO SACARSTIC AS WELL! IS THE SAME THING!
DONT EXPECT PEOPLE WILL TREAT YOU GOOD WHEN U TREAT PEOPLE BADLY!
PLEASE THINK ABOUT WHY PEOPLE TREAT YOU LIKE THAT!
I WILL TREAT YOU AS HOW YOU TREAT ME!
TAKE MY WORDS!
I WILL DO THAT!
well, the mood when i am writing this post is like sitting on a roller coaster
emo, sad, angry, mad and then finally calm down.
well, maybe i need to train myself to be more cold hearted and dont care so much about what other people says
just be myself will do
no one has the rights to care about how u be except for yourself
加油吧！陈盈薇！你可以的！
~Ginny~
~2.34am~
