第87篇。。。

实在想不到要写什么题目了，就写这是第几篇吧！

今天，
心情很糟糕很糟糕。。。
糟糕到迁怒于别人。。。
在这里我要说声对不起。。
对于今天我对你们发的脾气，实在是很对不起。。
我承认，我的情绪管理不好，
因为某一个人而影响到了我一整天的情绪。。。
从昨晚到今天，一整天都开心不起来。。
总觉得怪怪的。。。
我觉得自己很可笑。。
别人都不在乎了，那自己还在乎些什么？
你在这里伤心流泪，他知道吗？
你在这里发脾气，他知道吗？
你在这里忧郁，他知道吗？
你在这里感到介意，他知道吗？
问题是，你的一切，他还想知道吗？？？
既然他不想知道，那就算了吧！
既然他不把你放在心上，那你也没有必要把他放在心上。。。
既然他作出了这样的选择，就由他去吧！
你再也不需要找任何的理由来解释他的一举一动了。。
因为，已经不关你的事了。。
你不要那么8瓜。。
不要乱乱去8别人的事。。。
否则，受伤的，最终还是你自己，也没有人会可怜你，
因为。。。
是你自己找来的！！！


~Ginny~
~3.14am~

情人节快乐~~~

情人节快乐~~~
口口声声祝别人快乐，
那，
你自己快乐吗？
你也不知道。。
都不干你的事。。。
有没有男朋友，庆祝也没用。。
所以，只好跟最忠心的朋友-生物课本度过情人节。。
班上有个同学说的没有错，情人节，是single awareness day...
提醒你，你还是单身，你还是一个人，
最主要的是，你是寂寞的。。。
寂寞是很恐怖的东西。。
当他偷偷来袭时，他会带着回忆一起袭击你，
杀你个措手不及。。
让你毫无半点反抗之力。。
就死在他们之下。。。
却没有任何的复活能力。。。
只能让他们慢慢地把你吞下。。。
无人晓得你已被吞噬了。。。
这就是最可悲的地方。。。
没有人知道你的痛，
没有人知道你是故作坚强，
没有人知道你的心已碎了，
没有人了解你现在的感受，
更没有人知道，
你过得并不好。。。。。。。。。

今年的情人节，一点，都不快乐。。。


~Ginny~
~1.56am~

强迫症~~

最近发觉自己好像有强迫症。。
不是去强迫别人，而是去强迫自己。。
总是在强迫自己去面对一些自己根本就不喜欢的人或事物。。
强迫自己去做自己根本就不喜欢的事。。
明明自己就不喜欢面对某某人，却硬着头皮去面对。。
感觉做人好假哦。。
可是，问题是，那个人都不知道我对他/她的厌恶感，我不可能在他/她的面前不爽的吧？
这样会给人家一种很矛盾的感觉。。。
我也不想破坏现在的关系。。。
做人真的好矛盾啊~~~
我宁可和我的猫交换身份，那我整天可以无所事事，
就只是吃，喝，玩，睡，
那该有多好？
真烦~
如果做回真正的自己，
我看，会很多人都不爽我吧？
呵呵~
不说了，
只是希望有人明白我的心声而已。。。


烦啊~烦~你和矛盾可以离我远远吗？
我会叫太阳公公和各位星星哥哥姐姐们好好照顾你们的。。。 别担心。。。


~Ginny~
~1.52am~

Happy Chinese New Year~新年快乐~

wohoo~~
1 more day will be chinese new year dy~
yeah!
the kids are very happy because they gonna get ang pau~
but too bad,the adults are busy because they gonna give ang pau..
haha..XD...
what a big contra..haha..XD..
chinese new year is also a chance for me to buy new and nice clothes..
is a very good reason for me to have outing with my dearest friends~
haha...
but,
duno why this year dont have much feeling although chinese new year is just around the corner..
but hor, i still love shopping~~~
super love and super like!
although after that will be super tired,
but i really enjoying the moment of shopping with friends,chit chating and laughing..
haha...XD...
haha...
feeling weird on this post la..
the title stated happy chinese new year, talk about shopping pulak..XD...


anyway~ wish everyone who read this post happy chinese new year~~~
to all the people i know and who knows me,
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
GONG XI FA CHAI~
新年快乐～
恭喜发财～
心想事成～
天天开心～


~Ginny~
~1.46am~

school reopen~T.T

wow~
this is the first post after the school reopen..
haha...XD


2 weeks ago,school finally reopen and i finally finished my holidays~
although i super super super love my holidays and dont wish to let it go,but i have no choice..
haiz..
on the 1st day of school,my mood is kinda happy because can meet back those friends who i never meet for long time..and kinda excited also..
BUT!!!
a stupid prefect spoil my whole day mood!!!
!@#$%^&**&^%$$^*__)*^$#$^&@#$%^&*
eat shit la!!
this school is really a weird school!
got ways but cannot walk,got door but did not open and we cannot go through and we have 2 walk from another longer way!
=.=
is this call lame?
why wanna lock some of the doors that connect one block to another?
this is not convenient to us at all!
and why recess time got a lesser poeple way to walk but we cannot walk??
why we cannot pass through the perhimpunan place?
because it is too near to the gate and scare we run away???
bull shit!!
phew~~chill~~

after school reopen,many things need to be done..
feel kinda lazy to go out whenever i am a bit free..
i prefer stay at home and do nothing..
so call LAZY!
haha..
depends la..
depends on going out wif who la..
is friends yang lama tak jumpa and kinda friend de then is ok la..
i will super enjoy the moment with them de..hehe..

haiz..duno why dun have the mood to continue write it dy...
we stop here ba..
think of tans of homework then feel sad dy..T.T..


ps:thanks to someone who gave me my birthday present which owe me for very long time~like it!^^


~Ginny~
~2.18am~

welcome 2012~

5...4...3...2...1~ Happy New Year~~~
wow~time flies and now we are stepping in 2012 dy~
again~same as last year,i spent my new year eve wif my bffsss~ hehe~
but this year we spent in mr yap's house..
before we went to his house,we went to desa park city for a look because there was celebration there and some stalls were set for selling things~
it seems like a pasar malam~ haha~XD
about 8pm,we head to mr yap's house..
but before that,our dear li qun wanna wear her contact lens and we spent about half an hour on helping her to wear contact lens~muahaha~
actually kinda boring at mr yap's house de..
because we dont know about his friends and we got nothing to do in his house..
so we like wasting our time only...=.=...
but nevermine la,we choose to go his house de..
the most memorable part is the fireworks!
the location of mr yap's house is super nice and can see the fireworks that put by desa park city..
when watching the fireworks,out of sudden i had a feeling of touching~
i also dont know why...
someones said before make ur wish when there is fireworks and it will comes true..
i am not sure it correct or not and i forgot whether i do make wishes or not..haha...XD..
i just know that within the 5mins i thought of a lot of things included those things which happen in 2011 and whatever changes i wanna make in 2012..
hope i have a great 2012 ba~ and hope this year is not the end of the world~>.<


well~i know i will have a great year because today i went to 1U shopping and i bought things~ muahahaha~
super happy~
let me show u what i bought la~

this is so called my shopping shoe because it is so comfortable and soft when i wear it..haha... is convenient for shopping~love it leh~~<3

tomorrow~
school will reopen..
means i m gonna face my STPM very very soon...
because time flies..
i know how important is this exam for me and i must put much much much more effort in it..
but,sometimes,human is like this,
they know what they should do and what they should not,
but they still follow their heart and do it!
i really hope i can become SUPER hardworking and get good results in STPM~
come on~pray for me..
hope i can do very well in STPM and all the best in my life~
thanks~

ps:i think this is the last post before school reopen..hehe...=)

~Ginny~
~12.35pm~

2012~我来了~

转眼间，时间一分一秒就这样过去了。。。
回眸一看，许许多多事情的发生在脑海里闪过。。
有开心的，伤心的，心酸的，愤怒的，在意的，还有很多很多的事，我都铭记在心。。


2011年真特别。。
我开始了我新的读书生涯，到了一个完全陌生的环境。。。
虽然有好友的陪伴，可是还是会感到陌生和害怕。。
在那里，我也认识的很多的新朋友，有几个是可以交心的，感到挺安慰的。。


在这年里，我也受到了很多打击，
虽然很多时候都很难面对，希望我在新的一年里，可以更勇敢的面对所有的打击！
在十一月的时候，我受到了更大的打击，是前所未有的打击。。
生平第一次觉得那么的心酸，酸到极点！
甚至影响到了我在课堂上的表现！
我要重新站起来！
我决不容许这样的情况再次发生！
我一定可以面对的！
加油！


当然，少不了开心的事~
虽然没有什么机会和朋友们相聚，
但是我很珍惜每一次的聚会~
每一次的聚会都带给了我很多欢乐，
都让我忘了在课业上的压力。。
不管是与谁，与哪个好友，
我衷心地谢谢你们，
带给了我那么多的欢笑~
谢谢~
当然也少不了我的家人~
虽然很多时候会惹你们生气，
我希望你们能原谅我的过错，
不计前嫌，
还是那么的爱护我~
正所谓，家人没有隔夜仇嘛~呵呵~
谢谢你们~~~


在新的一年里，我会更勇敢的面对所有的挫折与挑战！
我会记得有你们在我的身边支持我，
鼓励我~
希望，
我所有的愿望都会实现~
希望我能
好好的~
完完整整地~
开开心心的~
没烦恼的~
努力的~
勇敢的~
过2012年吧！
加油！
陈盈薇！
你可以的！
也祝大家有个美好的2012年吧！

~Ginny~
~2.16am~